"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough and more it turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow!" ♥-innerspace-
So how do I begin? What does my heart says now? Have I let go? Have I move forward? What about pain, is it really gone? How am I now?
I find it hard to answer my questions. Wow, sometimes self-assessment could really be very difficult. If there's one thing I know, then that is, I don't have any other choice, have only 1 option, that is to let go!
Since we parted ways, the only thing he told me was "move forward, let's give it time." Indeed, he moved forward. A 100% decision to detach from me, to forget me was achieved. Now, this person is leaving for another country. Yes, that quick, that fast, he literally moved forward.
I have my share of struggles since day 1 and it had not been easy mending a broken heart. It kills you in pain knowing the person you love doesn't love you back. The person whom you thought would not give up on you actually did.
It's sad that our friendship ended. He was my bestfriend, and now it's over. Once in a blue moon, circumstances would allow us to talk. I tried as much as I can not to bring back the past, afterall nothing would change, choices would not change.
It has been 9 months, I can say that slowly I have found myself becoming better. Perhaps the pain will always be there, but this time I seemed not to dwell on it anymore. Nobody would help you but yourself alone. The only strength that you have is God's comfort. When I talk to God and share my innermost thoughts, it always feel better afterwards.
When we ended our relationship, there were too many how I wishes, what ifs, I could haves in me. Then, there was one person who asked me: Have you thank God for letting this happen? Have you thank God for your breakup?
Moment of silence, me recalling. Then maybe I have not.
I know that us breaking apart is God's will. This is his blessing. His message is clear, He removed this person from my life because He wants a better direction for me.
Now, I spend more time with my family. I joined a youth ministry and gained new friends. I have time to go to the gym. I lost weight. I transferred to a new team and met new people again. I gotten myself a promotionand most mportantly I am closer to God now.
See, there are so many things to be thankful for. When I look at all the blessings I have received after our breakup, it is so uplifting. So many beautiful things happened. This is just what God wants me to see. There's more to life.
I know that he also has his share of struggles, and maybe him leaving for another country with a partner to bring is God's reward to him.
I would not know till this very day what emotion would come into me once he leaves or once they are settled. It's better not to know anymore. I should not let it affect me. I do not wish anyone harm, God knows best. Everyone deserves to be blessed.
With everything that has happened, I am just really thankful for the experience. For all the lessons and memories that we have shared. God's will perhaps, we are not meant for each other.
Most of all, I believe God really knows best. He truly works in amazing ways. Everytime I look back and recall the series of events, I am just really in awe. When there will be reasons for me to cry, in a day or two the Lord will give me news and ways to celebrate and be grateful.
Lord, again I am grateful for the strength you gave me. Thank you for all the new people I've met and helped me move on. I am overwhelmed with your love and Grace.
So how do I begin? What does my heart says now? Have I let go? Have I move forward? What about pain, is it really gone? How am I now?
I find it hard to answer my questions. Wow, sometimes self-assessment could really be very difficult. If there's one thing I know, then that is, I don't have any other choice, have only 1 option, that is to let go!
Since we parted ways, the only thing he told me was "move forward, let's give it time." Indeed, he moved forward. A 100% decision to detach from me, to forget me was achieved. Now, this person is leaving for another country. Yes, that quick, that fast, he literally moved forward.
I have my share of struggles since day 1 and it had not been easy mending a broken heart. It kills you in pain knowing the person you love doesn't love you back. The person whom you thought would not give up on you actually did.
It's sad that our friendship ended. He was my bestfriend, and now it's over. Once in a blue moon, circumstances would allow us to talk. I tried as much as I can not to bring back the past, afterall nothing would change, choices would not change.
It has been 9 months, I can say that slowly I have found myself becoming better. Perhaps the pain will always be there, but this time I seemed not to dwell on it anymore. Nobody would help you but yourself alone. The only strength that you have is God's comfort. When I talk to God and share my innermost thoughts, it always feel better afterwards.
When we ended our relationship, there were too many how I wishes, what ifs, I could haves in me. Then, there was one person who asked me: Have you thank God for letting this happen? Have you thank God for your breakup?
Moment of silence, me recalling. Then maybe I have not.
I know that us breaking apart is God's will. This is his blessing. His message is clear, He removed this person from my life because He wants a better direction for me.
Now, I spend more time with my family. I joined a youth ministry and gained new friends. I have time to go to the gym. I lost weight. I transferred to a new team and met new people again. I gotten myself a promotionand most mportantly I am closer to God now.
See, there are so many things to be thankful for. When I look at all the blessings I have received after our breakup, it is so uplifting. So many beautiful things happened. This is just what God wants me to see. There's more to life.
I know that he also has his share of struggles, and maybe him leaving for another country with a partner to bring is God's reward to him.
I would not know till this very day what emotion would come into me once he leaves or once they are settled. It's better not to know anymore. I should not let it affect me. I do not wish anyone harm, God knows best. Everyone deserves to be blessed.
With everything that has happened, I am just really thankful for the experience. For all the lessons and memories that we have shared. God's will perhaps, we are not meant for each other.
Most of all, I believe God really knows best. He truly works in amazing ways. Everytime I look back and recall the series of events, I am just really in awe. When there will be reasons for me to cry, in a day or two the Lord will give me news and ways to celebrate and be grateful.
Lord, again I am grateful for the strength you gave me. Thank you for all the new people I've met and helped me move on. I am overwhelmed with your love and Grace.